35章仍然是令人心碎的一章,Scarlett从监狱没借到钱,一个人在冷雨污泥里行走,那情景只有路旁的黑人发笑。她碰巧遇到了她妹妹的情人frank,但是怕她妹妹不答应借钱,她决定抢走她妹妹的情人。第三次大的舞会借着Fanny的婚礼得以展现,Scarlett坐在旁边静静观看,各种对比的思绪再次涌上心头。乐观地同舞池里的人们一样,戴着面具似地沉湎于过去,还是像她父亲和Rhett说的一样去艰难地奋斗,她纠结她彷徨,她决定要出人头地,哪怕是嫁给自己并不喜欢的frank kennedy。 They looked the same but they were different. What was it? Was it only that they were five years older? No, it was something more than the passing of time. Something had gone out of them, out of their world. Five years ago, a feeling of security had wrapped them all around so gently they were not even aware of it. In its shelter they had flowered. Now it was gone and with it had gone the old thrill, the old sense of something delightful and exciting just around the corner, the old glamour of their way of living. She knew she had changed too, but not as they had changed, and it puzzled her. She sat and watched them and she felt herself an alien among them, as alien and lonely as if she had come from another world, speaking a language they did not understand and she not understanding theirs. Then she knew that this feeling was the same one she felt with Ashley. With him and with people of his kind—and they made up most of her world—she felt outside of something she could not understand. |